The Real Average Girl

Neglect is the first word that comes to mind when I think of my Tumblr. I have so many other sites and duties, that I just leave it be. I also don’t tell anyone about it.So there is that whole thing.

Tonight I’m going to a party. Nothing out of the ordinary, just drinking a lot kind of a party. I’m trying on clothes and nothing looks good. Nothing at all. It’s slightly embarrassing. And I’m almost to the point of tears because, how in the hell did I get this way?

I’ve been watching biggest loser all weekend and feeling inspired, but also, I don’t look like that! I can’t. I’m wayyyyy more in shape then them. Well no. I’ve had this pain in my lower back and have never figured out why. Well, it’s because I’m getting the UP booty. That is when instead of sagging, your ass defies gravity and you get a muffin butt. This has got to stop. Literally. I need to start getting healthy asap. Did I mention I started getting chest pains?! This is unacceptable. Absolutely unacceptable. I have a race in 5 months and I have to start getting it. Literally. I’m fat.

There, I said it. I’m a lard ass. Fat ass. Call me what you want. But, this will be the heaviest I will ever be. Mark my words because my life is about to change and get healthy, for the better. And hell, maybe I’ll even look like those gorgeous girls from the Biggest Loser.

You know you’re gaining weight when you lose your breath after going up 15 steps…

While I seat here, eating my 3rd box of 3 cheese Mac as cheese of the week, I’m noticing my rolls are getting bigger. I’m on my way to being a mini version of my aunt. This is not okay. By any means. Thanksgiving is around the corner, and that’s fine. That just means I have to work out more and get on the path of being healthier.

nutritionista:

1. Make soup.
2. Try coconut oil instead of olive oil, vegetable oil, or butter (and then toss your vegetable oil!).
3. Do my How I Met Your Mother workout.
4. Buy or make chocolate-covered frozen bananas.
5. Read my Indulging with Intention series.
6. Get a virtual personal trainer.
7. Work on your Thanksgiving menu.
8. Have a Nutritionista-approved holiday.
9. Read what I think about Clif bars, Naked Juice, gum, and Halloumi cheese (and other Q&As!).
10. See what I buy on a typical grocery shopping trip.

(Source: yourhealthista)

Dinner tonight: salmon with some lettuce and some raspberry vinaigrette. Simply amazing. A woman started talking to me today at the gym. She was having some issues with her machine and also wanted the fan on her so she asked me if I could help her. So I did. She started to tell me about how she has lost some weight and inches. Her face was lit up and it was nice. I remember that feeling a few years ago, and I want to get back there. I’m currently laying in my bed, watching bad tv and sore from my workout and let me tell you, it feels amazing. I wish I could feel like this everyday.

New thought today; it’s healthier for me to make up a random concoction at home rather than me ordering out.

Second time in the gym this week. First time this has happened in well over a month…or longer. I’m attempting to do interval training:running for 3 minutes, walking, then running again. This would be more effective if I stretched first and warmed up better first. I’ve been noticing when I run, my left calf/shin (yes I said calf/shin because this pain happens on the outside of my leg in between the shin and the calf) starts to tighten and feel like it’s being pulled, and I’m in a lot of discomfort. I’ve tried running threw it, but it’s quite painful and distracting.

Another thing I’ve noticed is I have to have a steady playlist of workout tunes that will keep me going. Right now, I have my iPod set to shuffle and it’s just not doing it.

One thing that does keep me going is anger. You have to be able to set your sights on something, and anger is definitely one of them for me. Exercising is the only time when I can truly take my mind off of things, which also is a motivation for me. I have 9 months until the Warrior Dash (I hope to do a couple of races before then) so I can only improve from here. Right?

Pretty sure I’m developing even bigger love handles… to the point where they are door knobs. I gotta start working out